"I suppose we human beings have always been in a hurry, but modern people especially seem to want what they want, when they want it. We are driven, determined, goal-oriented, fast-moving. I, for one, can't stand waiting.
But is it possible that we are made to wait because the track we are on is not the one God wants for us? Maybe we're forced to wait because God wants us to seriously reconsider the course we've charted, to stop hurtling down a dangerous road."
This struck me hard today.
I have been on this course for about a decade now, and am content to continue on this path if it is what I am truly called to do. The waiting, though, is unbearable.
I don't often talk about my faith on this blog, but in the last few years, months, and especially weeks, I have become more and more deeply ingrained in my faith. I pray for my vocation as a singer daily, and I see affirmations of it often. There are other times, like currently, where I feel as though I am in a void. It is interesting that this Lent, my prayer life has been flashing bright neon signs at me that say "DETACHMENT;" perhaps this is what I need to do in order for my true vocation in singing to shine forth. Detach myself from the desire. Detach myself from the pride associated with pursuing this career. Detach myself from the thinking that I am solely responsible for my success in this field.